Funny thing about moving on...if you come back, it can be with a new perspective. I've got that.
I felt bad because of a series of events I created. I had feelings that surprised me and I went with it. At the time I felt bad because I expressed them and probably made another feel bad. I felt uncomfortable with that. I'm a pretty positive person and I thought there was too much negativity with what I was doing.
I didn't want to become like her. But I realized I could never be like her. I was just trying to gain control where I never had any before. I needed to express myself. I need to. And I will.